Friday, October 30, 2015

Forgotten blog

I used to have a blog on blog.com  but I wrote it anonymously. Mainly because during that time, I felt alone and I had no one to talk to.

So I poured out what I was really feeling. Wrote in the blog posts how I was really feeling at the time. I wrote about people in my life but changed their names. I wrote about my life and hoe I was confused at the time on what I was supposed to be in life.

I went back and read what I had wrote. And those problems seem so small now. Some of those problems were just rants. A lot of them were unsolved and some of them were solved.

I had forgotten about things I wrote about. I totally forgot that I was a vegetarian for a solid two weeks. Ha ha. How worried I was about my ACT. How I did online drivers ed--totally forgot about that. How my dad lived in Oklahoma while we were still living in Texas, and we went every two weeks without seeing him. How I went to drill team banquet even after I quit. Hilarious. How I messed up on my essay for the ACT.


Here is a post that I am okay with people reading.

There were a lot of posts about me being unsure about if I was even going to get into college. But here I am now, in college. I was worried about nothing.


I'm glad I wrote those blogs. To remind me that those moments in my life when I thought I was struggling--- wasn't really a struggle at all. That I have these posts that will remind me in the future of what I was going through.

It's just a good idea for everyone. To write what they're feeling so someday they can look back and remember what they were going through.

You either love it or hate it...

Tomorrow is Halloween. Even though today is the 30th, people were still dressed up on campus.

This is my first Halloween away from home, and I think I can deal with it.

You either love it or hate it. And I hate it.

I mean, I used to love dressing up. I used to be Mulan, a cat, a witch, Po the Teletubbie. Those are the ones I can remember anyway.

This weekend I will be camped out in my dorm until the weekend is over.


But, everyone else have a safe and happy Halloween.



What are your thoughts on Halloween?

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Happiness is not a goal...

My thoughts on being happy....

Happiness is not a goal.


Old friends I follow on Twitter or Facebook friends always post about being happy. About how happiness is a goal of theirs. If they cannot be happy their world shuts down.

For a long time in high school, I thought that was my goal. That I needed to be happy to be alright. I wasn't happy for a long time until I quit drill team and then life turned around. But when I had being happy as a goal of mine and I obtained it. I realized I wasn't happy with being happy.

It was because I was so unhappy that I thought that being happy would make my world better, so I set it as my goal. I was happy after I quit drill team, but not for long.

I think whenever you set happiness as a goal. The word loses its meaning.

People ask you, "Are you happy with your life?" And people answer yes or no.

You should find happiness in the little things in life.

So this is what I did. I made a list.

I made a list of all the small things that made me happy in life. Stupid and silly things.

Seeing funny videos on social media. Getting a good grade on a test. Having a good hair day. Getting a letter in the mail--even if it's junk mail and finding random bobby pins that I thought I had lost.

I think it's when you find happiness in the little things every one in a while, it makes you appreciate being happy more.

Emotions aren't goals.

And when people tell me, "I just want you to be happy," I tell them, "I just want to live my life."

Because that's my goal. To live.

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

What kind of music do you listen to?

I don't know... Everything really.



When someone asks you what you listen to, "I don't know... Everything really." Is your answer. I always answer that anyways. 

I think it's because knowing what kind of music a person listens to, tells them everything about a person and who they are. Taking a peek at someones playlist is just the same as reading someones diary I feel like. You can see what songs they listen to the most, and maybe it has some significant meaning to them or they just like the song. You can see their guilty pleasures.  Like my iPod has a ton of Britney Spears and even some Barbie Princess and the Pauper songs. 

Embarrassing.
 
"I don't know" =  I don't want you to know what I listen to
For me anyway.

But here are a few good songs that I like. I like some of the songs for the meaning. Some of them, I like the way they sound and other songs got me through a rough time.


A couple of bands that I like: The Fray, Train, The Script, Carolina Liar and occasionally Fall Out Boy.
I put Birdy up there twice, because I love her music and the way it sounds. Even though Bon Iver has a better version of Skinny Love.
Tell me if you like the suggestions.
Enjoy.

 Seriously... What kind of music do you listen to?



Monday, October 26, 2015

October {OBSESSIONS} Favorites

I know it's still October, but it is the end of the month-- so I'm going to do my October favorites now...



October Obsessions

(I like the repetition of the O's)

Okay.
I am obsessed with iOS 9.1 update for the iPhone.
New emojis and everything. Mostly just the emojjis themself not the update.
They finally have a sunglasses emojji AND FINALLY THE MIDDLE FINGER ATLAS.


I've also taken up a new hobby of hand lettering sketches. I'm still pretty rough at it compared to the pros. But I like them so far. 
So far I've only been doing quotes and inspirational shit, but the ones I'm going to post, are just the ones that look prettier than the other ones. 

And yes, they're both F. Scott Fitzgerald, the first one from The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and The Great Gatsby.


And totally random... But I recently tried this new soup and I'm obsessed. Probably really unhealthy and it's a little expensive for a college student but yum.





ALSO. Halloween is this Saturday, what are your plans?

Interesting costume ideas?

I'll try to make a post about that if I have time.

Good Day!

Saturday, October 24, 2015

Still Waiting for Sweater Weather...

How is it already almost Halloween and November is just creeping around the corner next Sunday? Let me tell you I am happy about next Sunday. Daylight savings is over and we can fall back one hour. Hallelujah. One more hour of sleep. :)

I've been busy and these posts have been inconsistent. I've been writing essays, taking midterms and all that college type stuff. And I finally saw my family for the first time in two months last weekend for Fall break. It was the longest time I've been apart from them, but it wasn't too  miserable. (that sounds bad but it's my truth.)

Here are some pictures I took of campus truly turning into fall. 

Straight off the steps of the campus library.


I pass this tree MWT for my first class at the building up ahead and I was running late, so I thought I might as well snap a picture of this gorgeous tree. I need to go and steal a leaf off the ground. I've never seen such a pretty orange. 
Last night, I had an early dinner and grabbed a coffee from the caf. It isn't really a rainy day without a cup of coffee, right? It's been raining recently and I suspect it's from the Hurricane Patricia. Pray for Mexico. I haven't been updated on that news yet. 



Time has flown by this semester, this time next month I'll be home again and then it'll be December. Ah. Time slow time so I can take it all in. 

Monday, October 5, 2015

September Favorites

I don't know how September flew so fast, but it did. I need to get my shit together because I've just been bumping along.

But there is not much for my favorites for September but a couple of things.


Sally Hansen Commander in Chic nail polish is the greatest! It matches with pretty much everything too. Plus I've been taking biotin pills and it has made my nails stronger and the polish actually stays on!


These chacos, I've been obsessed with, as you can tell from my last post. I've been wearing them daily. I can say they are a great investment.


LILY. I love these planners. They are so cute that they motivate me to be organized. This is the one that I have but I won't post a picture of what I actually wrote in mine because some of it's kind of crazy. It's $28 dollars I think--- I know freaking expensive but it's worth it!

Image result for white chocolate macadamia cookies with peanut butter

ALSO PEANUT BUTTER ON TOP OF WHITE CHOCOLATE MACADAMIA NUTS ARE  MY FAVE SNACK. Totally unhealthy but its soososoosososooso good. Let me be more specific.. Put peanut butter on the cookie and eat it, not with it baked

By the way, someone emailed me asking if I was paid to praise these items that are big brands that are on my faves list, and let me tell you I am not! I wish I was though! I am just telling people who read this what are my favorites and what I like, not promoting it for money or whatever. But that's it!



I was supposed to start writing my essay for my comp class hours ago, but I've been on a TVD marathon trying to catch up since it's coming back Thursday. I haven't kept up because I liked Klaus and the original family and wished they would have stayed on, yay they have their own show, but I liked when they were on TVD. So I have not kept up until this past weekend when I pulled an all nighter for that. Wow I need to get my priorities straight.