Monday, August 31, 2015

When you hate that you love someone...

    Okay, everyone I know hated Alex Karev at the start of season 1 of Greys. But I loved him. People have grown to love him. He's a great character. And Shonda Rhimes better not every write him off the show. **READ AT YOUR OWN RISK... SPOILERS IF YOU HAVE NEVER WATCHED***
After Christina left, he became Meredith's person. He always tells the truth. Even when he told Owen about how she messed up the clinical trials. But hey, he did get Zola to stay for her and Derek. And after Derek dies he constantly calls her to make sure she's okay. 

He and Christina had the funniest relationship. They constantly put each other down, but at the end of the day he still forgave her for almost accidentally killing him!

He was sad after Izzie left him. He was still hoping she would come back. And even when he got shot he was asking for her.

He made a speech about the right person to a teenage girl, even though he could have told her otherwise.

He left during his boards to go check on Tommy and to be there for his intern Morgan. Yeah stupid move. But still! He left during his boards!!!

He made cute little scrub onesies during the baby shower for Callie. 

HE CARE FOR BABIES. In general he is a peds surgeon and cares about kids?! That is a plus.

He dealt with crazy girls! He never even gave up on Ava until she went absolutely crazy!

He is honest, yet again. And his sarcasm is easy to follow. 

He's not afraid to scream like a little bitch baby like when he saw the bear outside his and Izzie's trailer.

He stuck with Izzie through her cancer. That is points alone.

He is honest about his feelings! He can admit his weaknesses to girls!

I love Alex Karev!! I am still hoping and wishing that Izzie will come back and they will get back together. I'm still rooting for them. I wish she'd come back and break him and Jo up! If not since Derek is dead, I'd go for him and Mer.

Does anyone else love Karev???!

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Who do you want to be when you grow up?

These are my thoughts on being asked, "what do you want to be when you grow up?"

At a young age we are asked, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" We answer with something out of this world and say, Astronaut or doctor. I said ballerina.

And here's the proof.

Me, at I don't know what age. 

But over time in school we are always served with have a blocked out day for career day. And they give you lists upon lists and lists of what you can be when you grow up. And when people ask you, you come up with something really quick from the list. Or that's what I did. Because I had no idea. Then they said, "Don't worry, you have plenty of time."

But plenty of time, isn't really enough time. Here I am junior year of high school and every one has everything figured out. I'm sitting here not even knowing how to figure out this psychics formula. First of all, I already became a dancer. So that was already crossed off the list. I knew I was not ever going to pursue a career in dancing, so I quit. 

Oh and looky there... Sophomore year at a dance competition. Back in my skinnier days when I though I was super fat. 

But anyways. I needed to get my shit together. Because all this "time" I had was ticking down to no time. I had no clue what I wanted to do with my life. And what I wanted to be. Do I want to be who my parents want? Or my friends, or myself? I started applying to schools everywhere and taking my ACT again to get a better score. 

I got into Arkansas Tech, but I had never heard that school before. So I just said, "They want me? I'll take em."

But that's the thing. I didn't know what I wanted to study. Yes. I understand you don't have to go to school to be successful. But I didn't have any qualities I felt that gives me that oomf to be something great without school. So here I am thinking I got it together asking myself again. What do I want to be?

Junior year I had this journalism class that I really enjoyed. I thought going into my senior year, yeah I will go for that. There are a ton of things you can do with a journalism degree. But I didn't have a passion for it. I enjoyed it. But I knew I wasn't gonna enjoy a job like that in the long run. I don't know if I could be as dedicated like Woodward and Bernstein.

I like to read. I like to write, but I am a little shy of sharing my writing. I enjoy reading others peoples work and looking at their art. I like to organize things and make things and put them together. That's when I decided. Okay, I can major in English and hopefully one day work for a book publisher and maybe write a book, become an editor or maybe even a teacher. That kind of fun stuff. So that is what I decided. I could be happy doing that. 

But I tell my parents that. And it's not what they want me to be when I grow up. I understand their point. Yeah sometimes you will not make any money doing that. They just didn't understand. 

So I sat down and thought, and thought about it. If that is not what they want me to be, I'll find something else. Then I did some research and thought, I have always wanted to be a lawyer too. That could be something my parents want me to be. So I pitch that idea to them. 

"I will go to school, graduate with a bachelors in English, then take my LSAT get a good score hopefully, and go to law school and become a doctor of law."

And they agreed. 

So that is the plan for now. If not, I will just hopefully get a degree in English and do what I want to do. I don't mind doing the whole law plan. But it is plan A and B.

You honestly don't have enough time in choosing what you want to be when you grow up. But this is the thing. When you are growing up, you should be asked by your teachers, friends, family, strangers, principals not what you want to be, but who you want to be when you grow up.

And if I was asked who I wanted to be when I grow up, this is what I would answer:

Who I want to be is a good person. A person who can go to sleep at night and know that they have done no one wrong and that can fall asleep without wondering what ifs. A forgiving person is who I want to be. A friendly person is who I want to be, someone that anyone can go to for help and advice. Who I want to be is someone who is content in life and doesn't ask for unnecessary things, someone who isn't selfish, but selfless. 

It's never too late to be who you want to be, maybe the same too for what you want to be. 

But all this time we are asking people the wrong questions their whole lives. 

What do you want to be when you grow up?    Who do you want to be when you grow up?

Update on this post

I wrote this blog a year ago or so, or maybe two years. But it's been a while. I just wanted to update that to do this, do it on your own private network at home! Don't use your schools internet because they can find you and disable your internet. Yes, annoying. But it's considered "illegal." But do it in the privacy of your own home!

Link to the blog is listed below! Tell me if you used it and if you have any questions, email me!


Saturday, August 29, 2015

Middle school dayz

In the 7th grade I a Vera Bradley pencil bag that I bought from Ross since it was $5 and a relatively a good size. I remember when I pulled it out, everyone said that it was such an obnoxious pattern and it was ugly. FUNNY because a few years later, every basic bitch has a Vera Bradley something. (Which is ironic because I have a few myself now that it is back and cool.)

Birkenstock's and potato shoes are STAPLE shoes. I wore them in elementary school and people thought they were poor people shoes. Okay even funnier since these shoes are about $100. And now EVERYWHERE girls and BOYS where them! I don't know how many people I've seen since being in college that have been wearing them! I've been wearing them forever!

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I once used to wear Harem pants. In 8th grade I wore them to school and people were asking me, "ARE THOSE PARACHUTE PANTS?" Literally 3 years later they are a thing junior year of high school. It's funny too because the same girl who gave me the *what the hell are you wearing* look wore them in my class! HA!

My point. Don't change your style that fits the trends today. Be yourself. I used to be really self conscious, but I'm glad that changed a few years back because now IDGAF what any one thinks!


August Favorites

This month I've been super busy from working, then packing, the moving states, moving into my dorm, and then having my first week of college classes...

So therefore, I do not have that many August faves for this month. Sadly.

But here are a few.

Calvin Klein's Euphoria for women had always been my favorite since I was much younger. But my mom always said, "that smells like an old lady smell." Which honestly I don't think it does.

But I bought a roller ball perfume of it because I knew I didn't want to lug around the bottle and the bottle is so expensive! So I just bought this one at Macy's for $22 plus tax. Since I thought, "Hey, I'm gonna need an extra one for when I am broke in college." So while I was at JCP Sephora one day, I snagged another one for myself. Sorry not sorry!!

My grandpa gave me money last year to buy a new watch because I broke mine and he wasn't able to fix it. So I bought one with the money he gave me and then I went to Vegas and it was lost in the luggage, I was in need of a new one so my parents gave me this one.

It was actually my moms that my dad gave to her. But she gave it to me to wear since she doesn't wear it often and I am so thankful. It's a great watch because it's stylish, and solar powered AND WATER RESISTANT!!! SO THAT IS A HUGE PLUS!

I will try to post a picture of me wearing it with one of my outfits, soon!

here is a link to where you can buy it

These are my only August favorites, and I will try to post a picture of my dorm soon!

Thanks for reading.

It's hard to explain...

It's hard to explain my culture or ethnicity... So here is the google definition of it...

As bad as it sounds, I don't know much about my ethnicity at all... I grew up very American. My parents were immigrants but moved here when they were very young were also very American.

See I grew up in Texas, where there are close to about 0 Hmong families down there. The big communities are in Oklahoma, Arkansas, Tennessee, North Carolina, Georgia, Colorado, California and Minnesota. (Those are all that come to the top of my head.)

In Texas, the actual community was very small. We were all very spread out, so gatherings were rare and when we had them, they must have been special. We were so spread out and we all lived in different cities. Cities like Fort Worth, Cedar Hill, Dallas, Keller, North Richland Hills, Arlington, Midlothian, Decatur, and so many more little suburbs. So it was RARE to run into any Hmong families at the grocery store.

Going to school there was about only one other Hmong girl who I went to high school with, besides my sister. That's how small it was... Versus when I moved to Oklahoma my senior year of high school and there was about 100 of them, which I was not used to.

I barely even know all the customs.... Which this is going to sound bad, but I don't believe in them. This is 2015. Just because you go to a guys house, doesn't mean you have to marry them. But in the Hmong culture, you do. And don't even think about calling someone out if they have done you wrong, because you will never speak to them. AND you might even have to owe them a fine. Also don't even count on a real wedding, because your just going to have one at your house with about 50 people in there you don't even know. Did I mention that your fiance better have about $10,000.00 saved up, so he can BUY you from your parents! And don't forget to wake up before the rooster crows so that you can get a feast ready for your husband!

Those are the things I know. Because I didn't grow up with such strict parents who really enforced these rules. I don't believe in them.

Then my world turned around when I moved to Oklahoma last year. Everyone had a different mindset than what I had. Where my parents pushed me towards school and getting my education, other parents were getting their daughters ready to be a good daughter in law. Once older married Hmong man who had children MY age hit on me and I called him on it--- I was considered being "disrespectful." Disrespectful for calling out an older man who should know better being disrespectful?? MAKES NO SENSE.

Even though I Hmong, I am an American girl. I grew up to American customs and I like it this way.

Maybe this is my point of view and I might be the only one who thinks this. But it's the truth about me.

Just a rant.

Here is a blog I found that can explain it a little better than I can.



Yay, I have finally had time to totally redo this entire blog where it finally looks cute! It looks so much better than the google templates they give you!

It's a pretty complicated the way I edit things. I always use Polyvore for this kind of thing. That way I can create it from a blank canvas and add and drop things.

Like if you look at the top left side of the column, I made that on Polyore. I used to be able to photoshop, but I've been out of touch with it for a few years now.

But I'm so happy I finally revamped this page!! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do! And 2 posts in 1 day?! Yeah I've had a lot of time on my hands today that I should have spent studying!

Newest Trends....... That I hate!

I should be pre reading my books for this semester... but my roommate is watching Desperate Housewives and I'm a little distracted.

The past two years the trends have been horrible! I think it's just me who thinks that too, because everyone else seems to love them... 


I honestly hated this hairstyle...... We are humans not birds!


I don't know who in their right mind made up this style... Yes it's cute maybe if you're at a beach, but not for school like how everyone wore them in high school like this

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Okay, these days recently silver hair has become very popular... I hate this! I dread finding a little grey stress hair growing and pluck it out of my scalp immediately! I don't know why girls today can't wait until they are just old women and get grey hair... LOL I would regret this decision.



Gold Henna Tattoos

lets just say this style isn't for everyone....


two tone is not

These are just a few.... I am not bashing on anyone who has these, or likes these.. Just personally I do not like these trends for myself.

I wish the classic style would come back... Polo shirts and jeans were normal for a girl to wear and now a days their considered dorky. I love to shop at the Gap and Old Navy. Clothes there are staple clothes... They will never fade out, and never go out of style.

But then again, I am not much of a fashionista anymore these days like I used to be... So who am I to say what's cool and what's not.